It's DONE!!!!

Well, officially.

So after much freaking out and hysterics Thursday night, I did e-mail the woman in charge and tell her I couldn't do it. And then I called her on Friday and left a message saying I needed to talk to her. But she never got back to me. Either she was out of the office (which is possible, since she was also out of the office today and wasn't planning on making it to our shoot), or she just figured the best course of action was to ignore me.

Wise.

After spending the weekend obsessing and worrying and freaking out, and saying, "I'm not gonna do it," I realized this morning (based on a suggestion from Dianna) that I had a sarong that would go nicely with the bathing suit. So I ironed it and brought it with me, still unsure if I would put the bathing suit on at all, but having a back-up option, just in case.

When I got there, the first thing they did was weigh us and measure us, in the workout outfits they gave us. According to them, I lost 6 lbs. (4 lbs according to my scale; I also went to Weight Watchers on Friday and according to THEIR scale, it had been 5 lbs since the last time I had been there 5 weeks ago. Either way, really good, though not miraculous.) I also lost a half inch in my arms, 2.5 inches in my hips, and, amazingly, 6.5 inches in my waist. So that explains why my clothes were fitting better.

After the trainer weighed and measured me, she made a point of saying that it was a good start, which made me feel a lot better, and like I wasn't expected to be a size 0 after a month. So I decided to put the bathing suit on -- WITH the sarong. (Speaking of size 0s, I am 95% sure I saw Agyness Deyn in the locker room. What are the odds she works out at the Union Square Crunch? If it's not her, there is clearly some NYU student who looks EXACTLY like her.)

I was a little worried they would say something to me, or make me take the sarong off, but they didn't. So I filmed the bathing suit shot that way. (And they filmed it from the front only, THANK GOD.) I felt much better with my thighs concealed.

After that, we had to change into a separate workout (so it would seem like they had filmed this a different day) and do some of the moves we learned on camera. I am sure I looked completely retarded, like maybe this was an exercise video for special kids.

So, folks, after all that -- it's over. However, I'm clearly not done yet, and still have a lot of work to do. Kristen asked if I wanted to sign up for a 4-mile race with her in early June. I was going to say no, because I HATE running, but I think I will do it. I need another milestone to work toward. And if the running really gets to be too awful, I can always just WALK. It's only 4 miles. And then at the end of June, I have Lauren and Marc's wedding, so hopefully I'll be a lot skinnier by then and can splurge on a new dress.

Of course, I still won't be done then. I still want to lose about 45lbs, and that's not going to happen in 3 months. But I need to not think about it like that and keep taking it one day (or one meal, or one workout) at a time.