Today's the official first day of this thing, and I'm already feeling very defeated. This weekend wasn't so great, which I suppose isn't hugely surprising since my strategy was basically "Sleep all day so you can't eat." I don't think I ate anything insane, but I certainly didn't keep track. I went grocery shopping again, and tried to buy healthy stuff, but what good does it do if I can't make myself eat it? There is a container of cherry tomatoes, probably my least-hated vegetable (if you can call it a vegetable), that has been in my fridge for almost a week and will probably just go bad because I don't want to eat them. I would rather just not eat.
I've been as good as I could be today, and it just feels like it's not enough. Yesterday I baked Whole-Grain Banana Muffins(the recipe is on my official diet plan), and I had one for breakfast despite the fact that it tasted like glue. And apparently it's about 250 calories! WTF?! My Grande Caramel Light Frappucino, which I used to have every fucking morning for breakfast and miss dearly, is only 160 calories! And it does not taste like glue.
I had a package of carrot sticks and ranch dip for a mid-morning snack, which was 90 calories, and at that point I was feeling pretty good about myself. (Though my body was feeling sad because it ate carrots.) I ordered lunch from Energy Kitchen again, a turkey burger with low-fat mozzarella, which came to 390 calories, and then had a Kashi granola bar for a snack -- 180 calories. That seems like a lot of calories for a snack, but Kashi granola bars are pretty much the only kind I am allowed to eat. So now I have about 600 calories left for the rest of the day, and it's only 4:00. I guess that's a decent amount for dinner and dessert, but I really can't snack anymore today. Unless I eat those damn tomatoes, which again -- I would just rather not eat.
Tomorrow I meet with the trainer for the first time. Won't that be fun? (No. It will not be. Considering every time I try to work out with a trainer or take a class, I get too out of breath, it's too hard, I get frustrated, start to cry, and have to leave. Awesome.)
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I think the best thing about this is your positive attitude. Muahaha! What's the line? Anything easy isn't worth having or something similar? (Lie, but maybe it will help you here)
ReplyDeleteLol Laura. Love that we're both into this.
ReplyDeleteAmanda, what flavor of kashi bar did you have? 180 cal sounds like the hard ones with 2 in the pack. Bring a baggie and save half for later. I like the pumpkin spice ones. Adam likes the chewy ones (dark chocolate and cherry) that have only 130 calories. You might like those better, since they are a little sweet.
NO PAIN NO GAIN SISTA!! Kick some booty!! Agree w/ Kristen - the Kashi dark choc & cherry bars are awesome!! Also pumpkin spice ones!! Kashi is the BEST. Just had one of their new cereals - it's the GoLean! Crisp - Toasted Berry Crumble. Really good!! Great with yogurt too. (PS- this is Summer)
ReplyDeleteKristen, you're right -- I have the crunchy Kashi bars that come in a double pack. That's a good suggestion about saving half for later. I'll have to try some of the other ones, also. Grocery shopping in Manhattan is so hard, stores have such a limited selection! I'll check FreshDirect.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the suggestions, Summer. Even though I hate the phrase "no pain, no gain." Umm . . . I don't want to gain! (Yeah, I get what it means. But making sense is more important than a good rhyme.)